The Hustler's Life

 The sad truth sometimes is that you try to keep pleasing everyone. You try to keep everyone on the boat with you but the boat can only handle as much before it sinks taking all on the boat as well. So, you try to compartmentalize, taking care of people along the way. Sometimes a bit too much, causing one to feel left out in the process, even though you did not intend to. The ideal way to circumvent this is by creating a clear communication channel among the people, explicitly stating your plan. And if there is a change in the plans, you should step forward more. In those scenarios, clear communication amasses an even greater role. Sadly this wisdom came so very late to me after I had a grueling argument over whom I was giving a priority to. That too at a great cost. My plan always was to meet my partner but everything I did looked so confounded that I cannot forgive myself. Though he was always the ultimate priority and the main reason I was going to Delhi was meeting him but it f...

 Why do we tend to destroy the ones we love.. I can't but hate to see that my stupid decisions are causing harm to the loved ones. This entire month has been and is going to be disastrous. I hate to see the time passing by so bad. It hurts deep within to even see others in pain because of me. Just because of me. No one is happy because of my going and why should they be. Everything comes at a great cost in this world. It may all look rosy to others but no one can see the suffering deep within. My heart is shattered, in shambles, trying to collect the broken pieces of itself and trying to hold tight. I am seeing people in pain but am silent. I feel like a ghost, no soul or life within. My brain is under heavy stress and by body is unable to digest anything. I wish to make others happy and content and at sometimes at the cost of making up things to make them hear what they want to hear. In short term, this may look okay but I need to start telling the right things, even if it hurts t...